What's wrong with me?

Your problem sounds kinda bad, your mom shouldnt be calling you names or yelling at you. On the other hand, alot of teenagers your age have hormones that just go crazy in your body. All that combined with the way this world is behaving doesnt seem to offer a kid your age alot of hopefull thoughts. I have a son and a daughter that are just a bit older than you, My daughter acted similarly with the crying and days of hopelesness, she got through it but I swear I dont know how!....My son did basically the same thing except that he acted out violently and the last day of school in his freshman year, he got up on his desk and dropped his pants and mooned the clroom,......he got arrested too and I had to basically bail him out and then watch him like a hawk and had to be "overbearing" and very "parentlike" and I saw the way he was acting and the way I was acting and I swear to you now, I could not stop myself from acting like a parent. I felt aweful!.....Now my son is in the navy and he's an officer, the transition for him was hard to do cuz I had to sign him in at age 17. This seemed to me like a real "over the edge" kinda thing to do but we both got through it and we are best friends now. His hormones and my daughter's combined with the way the world is acting probably brought about the way they grew up and the way they acted. I really dont know what to tell you except that "I think you'll grow out of it in time" I wish you didnt have to always be arguing with your mom, I know it sucks for you to be in that situation. You'll be surprised one day though, that you grew out of it and can look back on it and laugh about it all,.......that sucks too cuz you're not that old yet. I can say one thing though that I've observed about life in general, "when you are young, time pes by slowly and it's almost unbearable but when you get older?.......a year goes by in what seems like just a few weeks".......talk to your school counselor if you have one and please understand that nobody can feel the way you do because they arent you but there's alot of folks out there who've gone through what you're going through and now they wish they could just be young again..............wierd huh?...... I hope this was helpful to you.